This is now my third week.
Adjusting to a new routine is still a work in progress. It is a good exercise for me to think further in advance and to better plan my days. Making menu plans for the week, grocery lists to match, cleaning house in smaller but more regular times, is a good challenge for me.
After years of being able to daily adjust my life and home routine to whatever happened to come along was a very ad-hoc way of living. Sure things eventually got done, but I was lacking structure. Not having set myself boundaries and some sort of plan or schedule I think drained me mentally and emotionally more than I thought.
Now having to better prepare and plan these past few weeks actually seem to have fired a few more sparks and got my mind cracking and my motor running again. I feel GOOD.
Physically it is a good push for me too. Go to bed ON TIME. Eat well. Get my butt in gear and get chores done on time. The jobs that I do, are also physically demanding more of me. Good. That only helps and improves my health and fitness. The last checkup was the best I had had in years.
Since one of my jobs is one where I meet many families in the community it has made me realise that I can't be in public with a "grumpy" face on. That I am better aware that when I am out I am not anonymous anymore. There is a good chance that someone will recognise me and associate me with my place of employment. I have to be better aware that I am also part of their PR and represent them too. Another good thing. Because I have to admit it was all too easy to go out and around with my "neutral and slightly moody" face on. Certainly with all the difficult things that had happened over the last while. Ok, I don't have to do the fake smile type of face, but at least have a "smile" in my eyes, and no more downward turned mouth corners. Better for the wrinkles too. Thinking positive: and trying to let it show.
Most importantly is the feeling that I am doing something of value for others, and myself. I am helping hands for the daycare and am seeing that it does make a difference. I also have my 2 families that I help in their homes. Their appreciation and compliments are the positive feedback that I had been missing all these years. I feel GOOD and useful.
Tired but happy and pleased with what I have done, and am doing.
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