I felt it. It's still there, and alive inside of me!
As I have been struggling with myself, and my depression....today was a GOOD day.
I actually for the first time in months...felt a "bubble" of joy rising up in my thoughts, my heart and in my mind. I felt to the bottom of my sole/soul....HAPPY.
It reassures me, that I am on the right path. That with all my ups and downs....that I can, and may be joyful.
What released my bubble? Just the being aware and focused on all the right and good things around me today. The summer sunshine on my shoulders as WE tidied the backyard and power washed the terrace. Setting up a shady area together, and feeling like we are working as a team again. I have missed that support for so long.
Also just seeing the wonder of little things, like the bees enjoying the new lavender plants in my garden, and seeing that the new "butterfly shrubs" are taking root and already trying to blossom.
Swooping swallows in the evening sky, and feeling the warmth of the earth pulse through my feet as I putter over the patio.
For me, it is a precious sensation to finally feel a moment in time, that the fog and mist of depression have broken open, and shown me today....there is light, warmth, and the miracle of enjoying a simple ordinary day, but with new vision and hope.
As I have been struggling with myself, and my depression....today was a GOOD day.
I actually for the first time in months...felt a "bubble" of joy rising up in my thoughts, my heart and in my mind. I felt to the bottom of my sole/soul....HAPPY.
It reassures me, that I am on the right path. That with all my ups and downs....that I can, and may be joyful.
What released my bubble? Just the being aware and focused on all the right and good things around me today. The summer sunshine on my shoulders as WE tidied the backyard and power washed the terrace. Setting up a shady area together, and feeling like we are working as a team again. I have missed that support for so long.
Also just seeing the wonder of little things, like the bees enjoying the new lavender plants in my garden, and seeing that the new "butterfly shrubs" are taking root and already trying to blossom.
Swooping swallows in the evening sky, and feeling the warmth of the earth pulse through my feet as I putter over the patio.
For me, it is a precious sensation to finally feel a moment in time, that the fog and mist of depression have broken open, and shown me today....there is light, warmth, and the miracle of enjoying a simple ordinary day, but with new vision and hope.
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