Wow.
This has been an incredible month.
A whirlwind of things happening. Things that have been challenging, things that have been upsetting, but also things that are helping me to fight my way out of my depression.
Basically I have made some major decisions to no longer tolerate people who are a negative influence on my well being, and happiness. Even if it is meaning that I have to say NO to people in my inner circle. After years (35 +) of consciously and unconsciously being undermined by their influence in my life, and family....I publicly said "No more, no further". Out of self protection...I am stepping back, and letting them go.
The moment I announced and denounced them....I physically fell over from the relief of finally letting go. I have come to realize that people like that, will never change, and their behavior will also never change. I can not waste another precious moment, emotion, or energy on people like that. For the first time in years....I have slept better, and deeper, and freer. It may seem hard, but if it is to the point that it is physically, and mentally costing me my health...I need to move away. I don't wish them anything bad, and do forgive them...and am giving them (and myself) the space to each move away...and in their own directions.
The other major change is that I am being more creative again, and active with physically doing things that are fun. Maybe it is a type of "occupational therapy" for me. I am doing large pieces of woodwork. Making fun (and easy) decorations for by the front door...Large ornaments that need manual labor, and physical effort to make them. A good release for me. At the end of the day I have something to show for it, and also feel for it.
We are also adding a new challenge to this creative process and are selling our "works of art" at local Christmas markets. That is a learning curve in itself. We are approaching it all with " it is an adventure" and making the best of it all. We are not professional market sellers, and we are winging it with regards to preparations, and how we learn to be flexible with situations, and the customers. We have lots of laughs, and even though it was blowing a storm...managed to work both days, outdoors ... for 12 hours per day. And to think we have 2 more weekends to go.
Back to the workshop to make more, and stock up on what we have sold. Already see what are the favorites, so making more.
Fun to be in the wood shop, with cedar, pine, and cups of hot chocolate to keep up our spirits.
Hopefully as you read this piece, you can sense that I am feeling quite a bit better than a few weeks ago.
Hope you are feeling positive, and taking steps to promote and share your happiness with yourself, and those you love around you.
This has been an incredible month.
A whirlwind of things happening. Things that have been challenging, things that have been upsetting, but also things that are helping me to fight my way out of my depression.
Basically I have made some major decisions to no longer tolerate people who are a negative influence on my well being, and happiness. Even if it is meaning that I have to say NO to people in my inner circle. After years (35 +) of consciously and unconsciously being undermined by their influence in my life, and family....I publicly said "No more, no further". Out of self protection...I am stepping back, and letting them go.
The moment I announced and denounced them....I physically fell over from the relief of finally letting go. I have come to realize that people like that, will never change, and their behavior will also never change. I can not waste another precious moment, emotion, or energy on people like that. For the first time in years....I have slept better, and deeper, and freer. It may seem hard, but if it is to the point that it is physically, and mentally costing me my health...I need to move away. I don't wish them anything bad, and do forgive them...and am giving them (and myself) the space to each move away...and in their own directions.
The other major change is that I am being more creative again, and active with physically doing things that are fun. Maybe it is a type of "occupational therapy" for me. I am doing large pieces of woodwork. Making fun (and easy) decorations for by the front door...Large ornaments that need manual labor, and physical effort to make them. A good release for me. At the end of the day I have something to show for it, and also feel for it.
We are also adding a new challenge to this creative process and are selling our "works of art" at local Christmas markets. That is a learning curve in itself. We are approaching it all with " it is an adventure" and making the best of it all. We are not professional market sellers, and we are winging it with regards to preparations, and how we learn to be flexible with situations, and the customers. We have lots of laughs, and even though it was blowing a storm...managed to work both days, outdoors ... for 12 hours per day. And to think we have 2 more weekends to go.
Back to the workshop to make more, and stock up on what we have sold. Already see what are the favorites, so making more.
Fun to be in the wood shop, with cedar, pine, and cups of hot chocolate to keep up our spirits.
Hopefully as you read this piece, you can sense that I am feeling quite a bit better than a few weeks ago.
Hope you are feeling positive, and taking steps to promote and share your happiness with yourself, and those you love around you.
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