I just finished reading a blog that I have been following. This incredible lady once again brought up a subject that I think women all over the world, are struggling with. No matter what age, or situation in life.
It made me once again, look to myself and what choices I have been making again, that benefit others, more than it benefits me and my soul.
It was a commentary about how we make promises to ourselves to do something that would feed our souls, fulfill our passions, and allow us time and space to nurture ourselves. We come up with reasons, excuses, tasks, projects, or distractions that take up the time, and moments that we could be using for ourselves. Once again we are place ourselves and our needs lower on the list of importance, than we should.
For myself, it is a sort of guilt situation that I have placed on myself. Why? I don't know. Logically I do, but emotionally (the deeper issues) I have to dig deep. Where it came from, I can only remember as a child, that I was told that idle hands were the devils playground.
That a clean and tidy house, was THE priority. And a lot of other remarks, or routines where programmed into my mind. I have always had this "tick" that the home had to be tidy and in order, before I could even THINK about doing something for myself; something of pleasure, or delight.
I have be lately trying to reprogram my thoughts, that a less than "perfectly tidy" home, is also OK. That no one is going to crawl on the floor, and count "dust bunnies" under the beds, or count dog hairs in the hallway. IF they did that, then they are not the people that I would like to have in my home, or my friends circle.
I have to force myself to relax, be kinder to myself, less critical of my home, and housekeeping...so I can give myself "permission" to have FUN, to be creative, and to live out my passion of doing something for myself, and my creative side...with out the self imposed restrains, and misguided excuses that I found my retreat in.
Leslie, I am making a printed copy of the last quote of the blog that you posted, and post that on my reminder wall, to encourage me to enjoy the present, and not be hampered by my fear of "imperfection" and not being worthy of pleasure and enjoyment; now.
see "Gwenn Moss"
I am so grateful that more people are willing and daring to share their thoughts, and feelings about things they are dealing with. The computer is a help when used in an upbuilding way. A blog, or website or forum can connect people, even on the other side of the world. Like with me, here in Holland. It is with respect that I hope to encourage everyone to open up, and communicate with others what is happening in their lives. We have been drifting apart, relationships, friendships are changing, and there seems to be less REAL talking between people. No fair weather chit chat, but hard core real issues, feelings and thoughts, worries, and cares. Re-connect, with respect.
Today I am going to look into my closet of hobbies and "projects in waiting"...and see what makes my heart sing. That will be my first step.... and then work on making a better choice for myself that will fulfill me.
It made me once again, look to myself and what choices I have been making again, that benefit others, more than it benefits me and my soul.
It was a commentary about how we make promises to ourselves to do something that would feed our souls, fulfill our passions, and allow us time and space to nurture ourselves. We come up with reasons, excuses, tasks, projects, or distractions that take up the time, and moments that we could be using for ourselves. Once again we are place ourselves and our needs lower on the list of importance, than we should.
For myself, it is a sort of guilt situation that I have placed on myself. Why? I don't know. Logically I do, but emotionally (the deeper issues) I have to dig deep. Where it came from, I can only remember as a child, that I was told that idle hands were the devils playground.
I have be lately trying to reprogram my thoughts, that a less than "perfectly tidy" home, is also OK. That no one is going to crawl on the floor, and count "dust bunnies" under the beds, or count dog hairs in the hallway. IF they did that, then they are not the people that I would like to have in my home, or my friends circle.
I have to force myself to relax, be kinder to myself, less critical of my home, and housekeeping...so I can give myself "permission" to have FUN, to be creative, and to live out my passion of doing something for myself, and my creative side...with out the self imposed restrains, and misguided excuses that I found my retreat in.
Leslie, I am making a printed copy of the last quote of the blog that you posted, and post that on my reminder wall, to encourage me to enjoy the present, and not be hampered by my fear of "imperfection" and not being worthy of pleasure and enjoyment; now.
I am so grateful that more people are willing and daring to share their thoughts, and feelings about things they are dealing with. The computer is a help when used in an upbuilding way. A blog, or website or forum can connect people, even on the other side of the world. Like with me, here in Holland. It is with respect that I hope to encourage everyone to open up, and communicate with others what is happening in their lives. We have been drifting apart, relationships, friendships are changing, and there seems to be less REAL talking between people. No fair weather chit chat, but hard core real issues, feelings and thoughts, worries, and cares. Re-connect, with respect.
Today I am going to look into my closet of hobbies and "projects in waiting"...and see what makes my heart sing. That will be my first step.... and then work on making a better choice for myself that will fulfill me.
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