It was a "mish mash" Wednesday for me. A mix of all sorts of nice, not so nice, fun, pretty, and at moments upsetting or irritating events. Without getting into detail, it just leaves me this evening with an uneasy, almost messy feeling.
Was able to get a few good things done, from my TO DO list, but then again, a few things on my hopeful list are going to greet me again tomorrow. Because I didn't get around to them. Luckily none of them are vitally important, no one will suffer because I didn't get around to something. But just in myself, it is an extra kick if I have successfully crossed everything on my daily job list. Why do I do this to myself?
In a way I am sabotaging my day, by pre-planning almost everything. It is my comfort zone, to get my daily routine done, and noted chores accomplished; before I even let myself think about doing something nice, or kind for myself. But as usually every well planned day goes, there is something that changes my careful planning, and tosses all my ideas out of the window so to speak. The only one who seems to notice my fluster, and irritation is myself. Rarely will family or friends make remarks about missing something, or noticing that my self imposed chores are not completed. Today was one of those days. I am mad and upset with myself for feeling this, and it seems that everyone around me is "blissfully" unaware of the unfinished job list. I think my mistake is that I BEGIN my day already in the stress, by planning.
I heard an interesting suggestion from someone, and I think it is one that I will experiment with:
Start the day of with ONE HOUR for myself. Begin the day with that. Within that one hour only 3 things are allowed to happen.
20 minutes of uplifting reading
20 minutes of complete silence and solitude (no music, books, TV, phone.....just being alone with self)
and then 20 minutes to plan the rest of the day.
With this idea, I will have looked after myself and my need and desire to feel my heart and soul.
I will be spiritually nourished, and focused ( by the time of silence); to efficiently and purposefully plan the rest of my day. Grounded in caring for myself...so I can care for others.
I am grateful for :
1. My family. They love me, even if the house is a mess (in my eyes), and there are killer dust bunnies under the bed. They don't see them.
2. The cloudless sky; passionate pink sunset this evening. It was spectacular.
3. Pet hairs. They remind me, that I am should not feel like I am alone, and that they surround me (literally) with their unconditional love.
4. Being reminded of what is more important in my daily life....daily chores? or making time to notice daily moments of joy? Like the sunset....it made my heart sing.
5. Everyday is a new chance to change; and do something good for myself and others.
Was able to get a few good things done, from my TO DO list, but then again, a few things on my hopeful list are going to greet me again tomorrow. Because I didn't get around to them. Luckily none of them are vitally important, no one will suffer because I didn't get around to something. But just in myself, it is an extra kick if I have successfully crossed everything on my daily job list. Why do I do this to myself?
In a way I am sabotaging my day, by pre-planning almost everything. It is my comfort zone, to get my daily routine done, and noted chores accomplished; before I even let myself think about doing something nice, or kind for myself. But as usually every well planned day goes, there is something that changes my careful planning, and tosses all my ideas out of the window so to speak. The only one who seems to notice my fluster, and irritation is myself. Rarely will family or friends make remarks about missing something, or noticing that my self imposed chores are not completed. Today was one of those days. I am mad and upset with myself for feeling this, and it seems that everyone around me is "blissfully" unaware of the unfinished job list. I think my mistake is that I BEGIN my day already in the stress, by planning.
I heard an interesting suggestion from someone, and I think it is one that I will experiment with:
Start the day of with ONE HOUR for myself. Begin the day with that. Within that one hour only 3 things are allowed to happen.
20 minutes of uplifting reading
20 minutes of complete silence and solitude (no music, books, TV, phone.....just being alone with self)
and then 20 minutes to plan the rest of the day.
With this idea, I will have looked after myself and my need and desire to feel my heart and soul.
I will be spiritually nourished, and focused ( by the time of silence); to efficiently and purposefully plan the rest of my day. Grounded in caring for myself...so I can care for others.
I am grateful for :
1. My family. They love me, even if the house is a mess (in my eyes), and there are killer dust bunnies under the bed. They don't see them.
2. The cloudless sky; passionate pink sunset this evening. It was spectacular.
3. Pet hairs. They remind me, that I am should not feel like I am alone, and that they surround me (literally) with their unconditional love.
4. Being reminded of what is more important in my daily life....daily chores? or making time to notice daily moments of joy? Like the sunset....it made my heart sing.
5. Everyday is a new chance to change; and do something good for myself and others.
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