Thursday October 16
As I began this challenge to write every day, I thought it would be easy. But, I admit as I am getting further into this daily writing, honestly, it is getting to be more difficult and confronting. I should not be concerned about what reads well, or looks nice. But be honest and upfront with what is in my heart and head.
The lady who began this action, is going through this too. Yesterday when I read her blog, I had deep respect for her honesty about what she was telling us. Simple, direct and real. Something that I can totally connect with.
It is something that so many are struggling with, and that becomes in a way a handicap for us. Certainly for myself.
It is about worrying. Constantly "on guard" for what MIGHT happen. As I told her; if there is a possibility of something going wrong, I will have a plan A-D (really bad things E-Z) already in place in my head. And then if I really get into my worry mode, I will think of variations of each plan, including #1-5 so to speak. I waste so much energy, doing this. Fretting, pondering, and ending up driving myself almost crazy with fear.
This is why I so wanted to join her in this challenge. It is my goal this month, to put my fears, into the background, waste less of my time, energy and emotion in them; and bring JOY into my day, and daily moments. Not fear, or worry.
As I corresponded with her, I remembered a period in my life where fear was getting the upper hand (again). I found a lot of practical and emotional help in a book by Sarah ban Breathbach. Simple Abundance. Time to pull it out again. Start from page one.
Exercise one, to be repeated each and every day:
Write 5 things that happened this day, that make you grateful, thankful. Things, situations, whatever, that made your heart happy, sing, be joyful, or just touched you.
Well, here goes. Thursday October 16:
I am grateful for....
1. I Woke up, and NO migraine. Had enough energy today to finish off chores, and did a few extra afterwards. Feels good, like mission accomplished.
2. Enjoyed dinner, because our sons came home for their favourite casserole. Everyone dove in for seconds. Happy tummies, happy hearts.
3. Warm house, now that it was cold, misty and grey outside.
4. Able to chat with family across the ocean , via the computer. Things like this were not possible 20 years ago, when I moved to Europe. And now it seems to "normal" to be able to skype/view chat to anyone anywhere in the world. What a wonder.
5. The wake up call given by Leslie's blog. I promised to write for myself, and not worry about what other's reactions might or might not be. True to me.
A good thing to consciously do each day: count your blessings.
I am blessed.
As I began this challenge to write every day, I thought it would be easy. But, I admit as I am getting further into this daily writing, honestly, it is getting to be more difficult and confronting. I should not be concerned about what reads well, or looks nice. But be honest and upfront with what is in my heart and head.
The lady who began this action, is going through this too. Yesterday when I read her blog, I had deep respect for her honesty about what she was telling us. Simple, direct and real. Something that I can totally connect with.
It is something that so many are struggling with, and that becomes in a way a handicap for us. Certainly for myself.
It is about worrying. Constantly "on guard" for what MIGHT happen. As I told her; if there is a possibility of something going wrong, I will have a plan A-D (really bad things E-Z) already in place in my head. And then if I really get into my worry mode, I will think of variations of each plan, including #1-5 so to speak. I waste so much energy, doing this. Fretting, pondering, and ending up driving myself almost crazy with fear.
This is why I so wanted to join her in this challenge. It is my goal this month, to put my fears, into the background, waste less of my time, energy and emotion in them; and bring JOY into my day, and daily moments. Not fear, or worry.
As I corresponded with her, I remembered a period in my life where fear was getting the upper hand (again). I found a lot of practical and emotional help in a book by Sarah ban Breathbach. Simple Abundance. Time to pull it out again. Start from page one.
Exercise one, to be repeated each and every day:
Write 5 things that happened this day, that make you grateful, thankful. Things, situations, whatever, that made your heart happy, sing, be joyful, or just touched you.
Well, here goes. Thursday October 16:
I am grateful for....
1. I Woke up, and NO migraine. Had enough energy today to finish off chores, and did a few extra afterwards. Feels good, like mission accomplished.
2. Enjoyed dinner, because our sons came home for their favourite casserole. Everyone dove in for seconds. Happy tummies, happy hearts.
3. Warm house, now that it was cold, misty and grey outside.
4. Able to chat with family across the ocean , via the computer. Things like this were not possible 20 years ago, when I moved to Europe. And now it seems to "normal" to be able to skype/view chat to anyone anywhere in the world. What a wonder.
5. The wake up call given by Leslie's blog. I promised to write for myself, and not worry about what other's reactions might or might not be. True to me.
A good thing to consciously do each day: count your blessings.
I am blessed.
Wow. Joanne you are truly a special person. I'm so glad we found each other in blog land, I absolutely admire your ability to write so honestly and keep at it even when it gets tough. You're an inspiration to me! Hey, I'm still trying too, lets celebrate no matter what when the month is over!
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