I feel like I am in limbo. A "no (wo)man's land", in my own house. Everything is not where it should be, or it is covered in a fine dust. It is futile to even try to shove things back to where they should be. Because in 2 days, it all has to be shoved out of the way again. It is awkward to say the least, not to have curtains to close at the end of the day. It feels exposed, and naked to be sitting in the living room; that is bathed in light, and the glow of the tv. Unwanted in the spotlights, so to speak. Think I am going to hide upstairs again this evening, in the only room that does have curtains.
Today it makes me unsettled, and restless. I feel irritated that I am hampered to do my usual routine of tidying and then fun puttering. In my eyes all I see is the unfinished work that has yet to be done. Everything is on hold, until the reno is done. I am a grump.
But to try and put this all into a good perspective, I am thankful for:
1. was able to let the dogs out for a good romp, before the clouds burst, this morning.
2. a quiet hour this afternoon, to work on painting my ring box. Therapy with a paintbrush.
3. a day that was free of appointments, so I could go about my errands, and fussing today without limits, or boundaries of meetings.
4. a warm plate of comfort food for dinner this evening. On rainy, grumpy days like this, comfort food is a great prescription for a smile, and a happy tummy. Makes the day a little bit better.
5. my home. Ok, I am grumpy that it is a mess, but at least it is a dry, warm mess, where my family and I are sheltered, and safe. Silly of me, to let myself get upset about the reno, when in fact; there are so many others that do not have a roof over their heads, and a meal in their stomachs. Part of why I am mad at myself, because I know how blessed I am, and yet....that materialistic side of me, got the upper hand today. Time to turn that around, and re-focus on what really does count.
Still trying and learning....
Today it makes me unsettled, and restless. I feel irritated that I am hampered to do my usual routine of tidying and then fun puttering. In my eyes all I see is the unfinished work that has yet to be done. Everything is on hold, until the reno is done. I am a grump.
But to try and put this all into a good perspective, I am thankful for:
1. was able to let the dogs out for a good romp, before the clouds burst, this morning.
2. a quiet hour this afternoon, to work on painting my ring box. Therapy with a paintbrush.
3. a day that was free of appointments, so I could go about my errands, and fussing today without limits, or boundaries of meetings.
4. a warm plate of comfort food for dinner this evening. On rainy, grumpy days like this, comfort food is a great prescription for a smile, and a happy tummy. Makes the day a little bit better.
5. my home. Ok, I am grumpy that it is a mess, but at least it is a dry, warm mess, where my family and I are sheltered, and safe. Silly of me, to let myself get upset about the reno, when in fact; there are so many others that do not have a roof over their heads, and a meal in their stomachs. Part of why I am mad at myself, because I know how blessed I am, and yet....that materialistic side of me, got the upper hand today. Time to turn that around, and re-focus on what really does count.
Still trying and learning....
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