not knowing. Nov 1, 2017

Gulp.
Shakey breathing.
Blurred vision (tears).
Heart beating too fast.
Anxiety and frantic thoughts and actions bursting out of me.

Not knowing why, or where, how or what.....
Just no answers.
Gone.
Disappeared.
No trace.
No reason.

Empty bed.  Food dish full.
Traces of her, on my windows.
Nose prints.
Paw marks on the door.
The dent in my quilt where she last laid.

My cat....
Missing.
My heart....also missing.